Learning to Trust in Everything

These last few weeks have been tough, emotionally anyway.

I’ve fought with the temptation of suicide, distance with loved ones, and my own faith concerning Jesus and myself as His Bride.

Now, friends have told me to just focus on Him. Focus on Him and nothing else. To use my imagination to build the bond more deeply. To relax and just trust.

And I’m like; you have a hand book for that? I have no clue where to start! My imagination hasn’t been used properly for heaven knows how long. So starting up the old battery is going to take a little grease and screw driving prayer.

You know how Jesus spoke in parables, and He’d use word pictures for the imagination to dive into so that you can think about it in any way you like? I appreciate the word pictures that people have suggested to me as sort of tools to help.

For example regarding relationships, a dear sister reminded me that they are gifts, and we don’t know what we get when we receive them until we unravel the wrapping to see what it is. And sometimes a good deal of time it’s not a gift we will have forever, but only for a season. Maybe even less time than a season, but when the gift is there in our life, we can fully enjoy it. Think about and meditate on it. Gifts are given to us for a reason.

And in everything, give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:18

Giving thanks even when my struggles are blinding for a time is hard. I still need work in that, but when I choose to praise and give thanks, it opens up a door I never knew would open.

Till Jesus wills it,
Godspeed!